People grow I get that… People change I know that… Why is this affecting me do much? It shouldn’t. I don’t want it too. I should be happy. I’m not. I’m lying to everyone. Someday I will be. Until then I’m just a raw nerve and I won’t hold back. I know I shouldn’t anyways, but if I didn’t I’d really be alone…. Might be better like that in the long run… Everyone can stop dealing with my stupidness. They don’t have to think of the next time I’ll fail; not if, because I will. They aren’t in charge of me being happy, I just wish they knew that I hold in a lot to try to make them happy.
I should be left alone.
It’s funny how my friends and girlfriend think they are the ones being hurt in all of this…..